80+ email replies a day got kind of tough sooo I set up a chat 
Its in the top navigation (click the pull me thingy). Use it 
Its only between me and you so yeah, its pretty private. It messages me at home and at college so you can catch me anywhere if you wanted.
Also, for those that dont know, I have a webcam and deskcam thingy setup (RonCam in navigation). DeskCam shows my desktop currently, webcam shows my webcam and streams audio (through my mic). I usually hide from the camera though :p
Yep, its finalized, I am an emo. I have awesome days then I just get in this deep unhappy mood (I wouldnt say depressed) then Id get happy again. Guess what I want to say comes out when Im unhappy and when Im happy I just dont want to think about the things that make me unhappy, if that makes any sense lol.
So college has been going great, figured out what the hell Im supposed to be doing and got done with it all in about 10 minutes (while others had been working on it for days :S). Its probably (it better!) going to get harder as time goes on but for now, Im really enjoying the slow pace of things. Take tomorrow for example, I dont have to go to college until 1:40pm because I only have to ‘go’ to my COM170 (thats English) class. Intro to programming and hardware class are both having a catch up day, so whoever caught up (nice song lol) can stay home since the teachers wont be taking attendance. Well, my hardware one wont anyway. Programming teacher has to go to a funeral (my regards and apologies…) so she wont be there. So its just an awesome day tomorrow (except for the whole funeral thing).
So I finally started USING my Facebook, so if you have one add me (or whatever its called on Facebook lol). Im in the SqHS network so if you need to be in it to add me, go ahead and join, not like youre gonna get eaten by Smeagle for breaking the rules :p Name is Ron Dutt on there (duh, what else would it be?) for those who dont know me.
If you havnt noticed, Ive somewhat stopped making new posts. Several reasons for this actually, the main one being college. I dont know if Im behind in class or if the class hasnt even started yet, thats how out of it all I am. I just sit there for seven hours every day doing nothing but starting at some girls picture from DeviantArt that I dont even know. A sad life it is, dont you think? Anyway, things have been…good? No, no they havnt. Things have been just blah! Neither good nor bad. Ive been feeling real shitty lately, guess its just realizing that Im no longer a kid and I cant act like one. If I do people stare at me weird…People who are in their 30’s or 40’s. Its just weird going to class with people who have kids who are in high school or something. I guess the biggest thing on my mind lately has been love, or the lack of it in my case. I see it everywhere…Just sitting in class I can see it across from me. During lunch I see people walking hand in hand. After school I see husbands come pick up their wife from college…Its all just making me depressed. Never really told anyone except Cassie this but I have yet to have a “real” girlfriend…To experience love completely, not just infatuation. To be loved back rather than it being a one way thing. The strange thing is people who have had plenty of girlfriends or boyfriends come to me for relationship advice heh. Little do they know Im the last person they should be asking. Well, guess thats all Im gonna blabber about today…Just wanna go lay down and drift away into the realm of sleep where everything Ive ever wanted and needed is the reality and all the mistakes and regrets in my life cease to exist. Goodnight to whoever reads this…Thanks by the way, to all who read it (all 10 or so of you heh). Nice knowing theres people out there, even if they be strangers, that are atleast interested or curious to see into my life.