A fire that is carefully stoked and tended will not burn out.
It will blaze so brightly that its warmth lingers in your heart.
It will beckon your tired soul and embrace you in its radiance.
The familiar smell of its smoke can bring a wistful smile,
and the occasional blast of fireworks can take your breath away.
Its sizzle can enthrall you; its flickering flames entrance you.
The glowing embers provide comforting heat,
and the knowledge that a subtle movement or gentle breeze
can rekindle a bonfire.My love, the spark that ignited the day we met
remains an eternal flame.- Lori Naumann -
I realize I haven’t blogged for a while, so many reason behind this that I felt bad enough to post. Well, I finally graduated! Two long gruesome years of Computer Networking and I have come out a much better person than I went in. Gained a lot of really amazing friends that I couldn’t imagine ever being apart from along the way too! Bellingham Technical College is done and over…maybe one day I’ll go back for the Electronics course but I doubt it.
During the last 6 weeks of the CNet course all students are required to do an internship. Due to my leadership? at the LinuxFest, Greg Rehm (possibly my favorite instructor at BTC) lined up an internship for me at CSS Communications. At first I was a little confused…It seemed as if Greg and I disagreed on everything. I did things my way and he objected, he did something his way and I showed him a newer way/better way. We butted heads on more than one occasion, little did I realize this is why he picked the best internship for me. At CSS I got to do some amazing things…I was given freedom to do a task as I see fit (as long as it fit some company guidelines). Days went by, Jeremia Pickett was brought aboard on an internship as well as he was having a hard time finding one. Weeks went by…I got adjusted to the environment…Its cold! Very cold…
My six weeks was almost nearing an end, and I started panicking a bit about what to do afterwards. I didn’t want to waste all summer sitting around the house as I’ve done before. I was being hammered by my parents every opportunity they got to find a job…Decide what I want to do next, do this do that! Agh! Sometimes parents need to understand that there is a certain age kids reach when telling them something once is enough! Anyway, I’m finishing up my final project of the internship at CSS when Scott (my supervisor) messages me on GTalk out of nowhere and goes “parking lot, now.” Either I was in deep deep trouble or he wanted to have a talk with Jeremia alone. So I followed command and went up to the parking lot, and up walks Ray (owner of CSS) to offer me a full time job =) Me, working at a datacenter…I can’t even remember for how long this has been my dream job! Straight out of college (not even actually!) and already have the job career of my dreams! I was the happiest person on Earth at that moment. Everything in my life was perfect..except…a hole in my heart.
Anyone who knows me knows how much I love games, one called Lineage 2 in particular. I was a GM (GameMaster) on a server and life was pretty fun. Eight hours at CSS working, come home and release some anger/frustrations/relax in Lineage. I settled into the daily routine pretty fast, its how life for me was now. Being the generous person I am, I let others use my Ventrilo (voice chat) server. One such group was a clan from Lineage 2. My Ventrilo is ALWAYS empty so I decided to advertise it in game for anyone who wants to come hang out and talk rather than type. One lazy Thursday two pretty cool people joined: Yasu and Mysti. Mysti aka Sempiternam I pretty much instantly fell in love with, why? She had the CUTEST VOICE EVAR! I teased her with “omg cute voice girl!” every time I saw her. And to her I dedicate the poem…
Jamie is the name of the most amazing person on this and every other universe! She is perfect in every way…She’s a geek (she can fix her own computer!), she’s a bigger StarGate SG-1 fan than I (grr box set me want!), beauty surpassing that of Aphrodite…Im in love <3 Everything I do I think of her…If she afk’s I miss her more than anything. Every day I wait for 4:30pm so that I can go home and talk to her (not that we dont IM while I’m at work…love CSS!). She is my everything, and I am hers…I don’t know life without her anymore. I have no life without her…
I know its a long post but I had a lot to say, and will probably continue to have more to say in the coming days/weeks. I love all my friends, I love God, and I love you Jamie! I don’t know what I will do without every single one of you =)